Tuesday, June 29, 2010


What is art...music in particular. It's language, it's a translator, a vessel for feelings where words can't do any good in describing. I was born like this, on all the time, my sight never ceases, my body falls asleep but I dream so real I don't really sleep. I remember growing up really young and just going out alone into the woods trespassing through neighbours' back yards and I felt at home out there...not in the typical way someone goes out into nature to escape, it was more, still is, like going home, like being released. In itself it was music to me. Those moments are music. Emotions, sensations, complex, simple, audible or not. All of it is an endless tune.

When I listen to the music of other people, it's listening to their heartbeat, to their soul's pulse. Sometimes I can tell if its from deep within or just the surface, and usually that is what gets me to like a piece of work or to stray from it. I like feeling that soul pulse of others. It's their gaslamp flickering...their lives, realities, stories. You hear/feel a version of what they felt in a moment. You feel a ghost of what might have caused those feelings within them to exist. You could feel their experience as an insect caught in amber for a thousand years, its shape is still present, but the insect is gone or it has changed.

This set is just shy of 18 hours of those pulsing souls that I felt deeply. I wish it could be more but I don't want to go on for days and days [laughs.] It is a prepared set so it isn't done live and it's not beatmatched, not mixed in the typical manner, it's more a focus on the music itself and the story(s) within the music and the journey of the set [if you decide you really want to listen to all 18 hours rather than flick through it. Either way is good.] It took me a while to decide which pieces I wanted to string together and the order I wanted them all to be in, and this story that is a collage of the pulses of others is the result.

You could say it's an inspirations kind of set but it's deeper than that to me. The best inspiration I usually derive from is usually not others work, aurally, as inspiring as it all really is. Usually it is in quiet moments alone in waking or dreaming where I find it. It could be walking alone in the rain, the smells of soaked spring blossoms just starting out, night air, the sound of distant traffic when falling asleep, being in someone's arms, losing that feeling, or longing for it, stresses, hopes failed and realized...all of those silences where the music is all that and just a heartbeat, a nervous system and the sounds of animate and inanimate life.

A lot of the pieces in this set remind me of these fragments of reality. Some of them sound like they were stripped from dreams directly. This is something so rare, I don't feel that many are able to do it, I wish I could, and I crave it like I crave the feelings that generated the final outcomes. Music that sounds like it came straight from inside, the sap of a dream. It captures these moments and bottles them. You can play those feelings over and over, and when it's done truly, it never grows old, you can always go back to it. You can't often do that with moments like that in life, can't play them over again. I sometimes wish it were possible to be stuck in those moments forever, but that would drain the possibilities of other moments out of life. I savour them while they happen, and then move away, the next will come at some point...

This is what compels me to do my own work. I'm addicted to capturing these feelings. I could do it just for myself but I'd rather share, share my glowings, maybe pass them on to someone else who could be inspired by it. It's difficult to describe this drive as anything other than pure compulsion. I don't know how else to transmit these feelings and I can't really feel those feelings in my own work afterwards. I know it is there because others react to it in ways that let me know those feelings are there, but it's strange how they aren't there for me. It's sacrifice and it is good this way… it keeps me going because I crave it so much. Even if it never comes for me in my work, I'll always want more, always want to bottle it. I can't stop even if I need to.

It's the closest thing I'll ever get to feeling home, like feeling where I should be. I never feel that way unless I am translating these feelings, otherwise I just want to be elsewhere, but I don't know where that elsewhere is, I can't find it. Music, hearing others' music, their flickering, comforts me, lets me know I'm not the only one, that a lot of us feel this way for so many reasons.

This set is the flickering of others and this is me flickering back, reflecting their flickering with a convex mirror for others to reflect on to further others, through inspiration, a smile, whatever. It's just another trigger for the butterfly effect. The people in this set all captured moments and I am more than sure that so many of them crave capturing them as much as I do. These are their moments strung together to form and reflect a hive moment, something that can only happen when everything is clustered. A new context, a new reality, emerges...

Note: Due to a ghost in the machine, the soundcloud player doesn't let the full length of the first part of the set play out, but it can be downloaded as a full length mp3.

jesse somfay - process part 217a by modyfier

001 RJD2 - Salud

002 RJD2 - Someone's Second Kiss

003 J Dilla - Waves

004 RJD2 - The Proxy

005 Murs & 9th Wonder - Fornever

006 C-Rayz Walz - We Live

007 Cannibal Ox - Scream Phoenix

008 Vordul Mega - Peanut Butta Up's

009 RJD2 - Work

010 Vordul Mega - Hard Times

011 Stereolab - Metronomic Underground (Wagon Christ Remix)

012 J Dilla - Lazer Gunne Funke

013 C-Rayz Walz - Music Take Ovah

014 J Dilla - Shouts (Alt) (Instrumental)

015 Babu - The Unexpected

016 J Dilla - In The Night / While You Slept (I Crept)

017 J Dilla - Take Notice

018 El-P - The Overly Dramatic Truth

019 RJD2 - Making Days Longer

020 J Dilla - Kaklow (Jump On It)

021 Sonic Sum - Circuit Breaker

022 J Dilla - Geek Down

023 Cannibal Ox - Pigeon

024 Aesop Rock - Keep Off The Lawn

025 Sonic Sum - Marathoner

026 El-P - Blood

027 Vordul Mega - Hattori Hanzo

028 Cannibal Ox - Raspberry Fields

029 Rob Sonic - Sniper Picnic

030 Aesop Rock - Dark Heart News

031 The Reavers - Nature

032 C-Rayz Walz & Parallel Throught - Vomit Chorus

033 The Reavers - Scoundrels

034 Vordul Mega - Broken

035 Rob Sonic - Shoplift

036 El-P - The League Of Extraordinary Nobodies

037 Aesop Rock - Five Fingers

038 El-P - T.O.J.

039 The Reavers - Hochiminh

040 Sonic Sum - Sara-Inge

041 El-P - Dear Sirs

042 Sonic Sum - Untitled

043 Burial - Fostercare

044 Foals - Spanish Sahara (Mount Kimbie Remix)

045 Take - Before You Think

046 The Bug - You & Me

047 Burial - Nite Train

048 Thom Yorke - Harrowdown Hill (The Bug Remix)

049 Vex'd - Killing Floor (MAH Remix)

050 Brothomstates - Qtio

051 East Flatbush Project - Tried By 12 (Autechre Remix)

052 Gescom - Viral Rival (Autechre Remix)

053 Meat Beat Manifesto - Prime Audio Soup (Boards of Canada Vegetarian Soup Remix)

054 Lamb - Gold (Autechre Remix)

055 Mira Calix - Sandsings (Boards of Canada Remix)

056 David Sylvian - Shadowland (Autechre Remix)

057 Autechre - Cichli

058 Gescom - Leritue (Autechre Remix)

059 Autechre - Zeiss Contarex

060 Autechre - Treale

061 Autechre - os veix3

062 u-Ziq - Goodbye, Goodbye

063 Boards of Canada - Red Moss

064 Beaumont Hannat - Psi-Onyx (Autechre Remix)

065 Autechre - Second Peng

066 Autechre - Acroyear2

067 Squarepusher - Square Window

068 V - Vliezwei (Autechre Remix)

069 Autechre - V-Proc

070 Squarepusher - F-Train

071 Aphex Twin - Vordhosbn

072 Squarepusher - Tundra 4

073 u-Ziq - Catkin and Teasel

074 Autechre - Flutter

075 Squarepusher - Theme From Ernest Borgnine

076 Squarepusher - Tundra

077 Autechre - Plezo

078 Squarepusher - I Wish You Could Talk

079 Squarepusher - Sarcacid Part 2

080 u-Ziq - London

081 Squarepusher - Beep Street

082 Mogwai - Sine Wave

083 Aphex Twin - Heliosphan

084 Aphex Twin - .215061

085 Autechre - Oval Moon (IBC Mix)

086 AFX - Where's Your Girlfriend

087 Stereolab - Refractions In The Plastic Pulse (Autechre Remix)

088 Squarepusher - Song, Underwater Torch

089 Squarepusher - My Fucking Sound

090 Autechre - Parhelic Triangle

091 Freeform - A.T. (Autechre Remix)

jesse somfay - process part 217b by modyfier

092 Squarepusher - Parallelogram Bin

093 Hecker - Itiso161/ae (Gescom Remix)

094 Einsturzende Neubauten - Finger Und Zähne

095 Stereolab - Percolations

096 Einsturzende Neubauten - Unseasonable Weather

097 Aphex Twin - Gwarek2

098 Einsturzende Neubauten - Airplane Miniature #4

100 Death In June - Lord Winter

101 Laudanum - Procession

102 Ben Frost - Killshot

103 Gnaw - Haven Vault

104 Khanate - Dead

105 Sunn O))) - Big Church (Megszentségteleníthetetlenségeskedéseitekért)

106 AEthenor - III

107 Sunn O))) - Belurol Pusztít

108 Blood Fountains - Cold Flood / In

109 Fear Falls Burning Vs Freiband

110 Ghengis Tron - The Feast / Ergot (Dntel Remix)

111 Fennesz - June

112 Aphex Twin - Gwely Mernans

113 Einsturzende Neubauten - Negativ Nein

114 The Skull Defekts - Unholy Drums For Psychedelic Africa

115 Einsturzende Neubauten - Das Schaben

116 Slipknot - (515)

117 The Observatory - Lowdown

118 Sonic Youth - Providence

119 Einsturzende Neubauten - Halber Mensch

120 A Storm Of Light - Alpha (Law Of Nature Part 1)

121 Burial - Untitled

122 Callisto - 31 46°N, 35 14° E

123 Grouper - Cover The Windows And The Walls

124 Belong - Same Places (Slow Version)

125 Grouper - Vessel

126 Grouper - Follow In Our Dreams

127 Julianna Barwick - Cloudbank

128 The Sight Below - Fervent

129 Fennesz - Perfume For Winter

130 Lovesliescrushing - Elephai

131 Lovesliescrushing - Last Blue Ray

132 Pyramids - The Echo of Something Lovely

133 Belong - I Never Lose. Never Really

134 Nine Inch Nails - In This Twilight (Fennesz Remix)

135 Pyramids With Nadja - Into The Silent Waves

136 Leyland Kirby - Memories Live Longer Than Dreams

137 Burial - Forgive

138 Sigur Ros - Untitled

139 Olafur Arnalds - ...Og Lengra

140 Tangerine Dream - Sequent C'

141 Richard Skelton - Undertow

142 Burial - Night Bus

143 Autechre - Vletrmx 21

144 Tortoise - To Day Retrieval (Autechre Remix)

145 Mamiffer - Suckling A Dead Litter

146 Fennesz - Transit (Featuring David Sylvian)

147 Nine Inch Nails - The Day The World Went Away (Quiet Version)

148 Brian Eno - Music For Airports Part 1

149 Autechre - see on see

150 Nine Inch Nails - A Warm Place

151 Autechre - Nine

152 Eluvium - Under The Water It Glowed

153 Kraftwerk - Heimatklange

154 Boards of Canada - Untitled

155 u-Ziq - 27

156 Tangerine Dream - Rubycon Part 2

157 Cluster & Eno - Schone Hande

158 Kraftwerk - Kristallo

159 Neu! - Lila Engel (Lilac Angel)

160 Sonic Youth - Sugar Kane

161 Stereolab - Refractions In The Plastic Pulse

162 Stereolab - K-Stars

163 Sonic Youth - Sweet Shine

164 Stereolab - Super Falling Star
165 Depeche Mode - Waiting For The Night
166 Cocteau Twins - Blue Bell Knoll
167 Depeche Mode - Freelove

168 Depeche Mode - Insight

169 Depeche Mode - When the Body Speaks

170 Depeche Mode - I Want You Now

171 Japan - Ghosts

172 This Mortal Coil - Mr. Somewhere

173 Nine Inch Nails - Hurt (Quiet)

174 Swans - In My Garden

175 This Mortal Coil - Song To The Siren

176 Dead Can Dance - Emmeleia

177 Squarepusher - Love Will Tear Us Apart

178 Swans - Love Will Tear Us Apart (Black Version)

179 Abronzius - Charlotte Sometimes (The Cure)

180 Swans - Mother's Milk

181 Sonic Youth - Flower

182 Joy Division - She's Lost Control

183 Einsturzende Neubauten - Seele Brennt

184 The Skull Defekts - Six Sixes

185 Swans - I Am The Sun

186 The Angels of Light - My Brother's Man

187 Nausea - Lie Cycle

188 Einsturzende Neubauten - Der Schacht Von Babel

189 Jodis - Follow The Dogs

190 Earth - Hung from the Moon

191 Jodis - Ascent
192 Kodiak - Beginning
193 Ascend - Dark Matter

194 Bohren & Der Club Of Gore - Welk

195 The Observatory - The Boring

196 Jesse Sykes & The Sweet Hereafter - Spectral Beings

197 Coalesce - We Have Lost Our Will

198 Inga Liljestrom - Fall

199 A Storm of Light - Sister

200 Isis - The Minus Times

201 Slipknot - Skin Ticket

202 Celeste - Ces Belles De Rêve Aux Verres Embués

203 Isis - Hive Destruction

204 Integrity - Heavens Final Word

205 Isis - Celestial (The Tower)

206 Floor - Sunday

207 Antischism - Freedom At Last

208 Thou - Out Of The Mouth Of A Fool

209 Antischism - Pets Or Meat

210 Korn - Swallow

211 Korn - Ball Tongue

212 Korn - Lost

213 Deftones - Bored

214 Forensics - Crashing

215 Year Of No Light - Abbesse

216 Jesu - Friends Are Evil

217 Boris - …And Hear Nothing

218 Isis - Threshold of Transformation

219 Pelican - Final Breath

220 Jesu - Mother Earth

221 Russian Circles - Malko

222 Alcest - Percées De Lumière

223 Junius - [Elan Fatale] 1

224 Jesu - Farewell

225 Iroha & Fragment - Bittersweet

226 Year Of No Light - Sélénite

227 Fall Of Efrafa - Simulacrum

228 Junius - At The Age Of Decay

229 Envy - Zero

230 Boris - Akirame Flower

231 Floor - Serendipitous Montag


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Music is feelings, the ones you give, the ones you're graced to receive.
You said and demonstrated it perfectly!

4:51 AM  
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